Prisoner Of The Mind

Why should I survive at all? A question I aks myself everyday... Don't think it's worth breathing anymore nor do a shit. Once I was happy but theese last 6 years there have been few highlights. Through the years I've always been picked on or harassed by humans, something that I hate but got used to it and just raised over it. One of the most silly thing is that the "leader" (wimp) in the class harassed me just because I got a big dick... well I think deep inside he wants cum to rage wild in his ass but off to more subjective uhm.. letters/words... Shit happens you know. People bully for silly things, for example when I started to cultivate and harvest the real me I found a music genre that I could relate how I felt through: Black metal and Depressive music. Since I get easily obsessed with things I started to talk about the bands and find out about the story and that roller-coster(dunno how that is written) so ppl started to leave me and I got more depressed because of that and later I started to cut myself, not to get attention but to feel more alive and forget this misery. as far as I have understood when ppl see your scars they think you're a weak psycho but isn't it a sign that you have tried to be strong for such a long time? Well it's some of how it is to be harassed over years, ppl have a hard time accepting inhuman individuals who are themselves.


Can mention more specific of how things has been and evolved over the years in future posts, right now I'm confused which you may have noticed in the writing but hope you, the human or hopefully inhuman understand  what it's like. This existance among mainstream shitty humans.




I, chained in the human wheelchair 

(This is Nattramn)